I can remember a childhood Christmas when I believed I heard Santa putting presents under the tree downstairs. I was in bed and I was laying so still, barely breathing, because I was afraid that if I moved a muscle Santa and his reindeer would fly away and leave me with nothing to open in the morning. I was literally terrified that I would not receive any presents.

I remember crafting long lists and letters to Santa of all the things my greedy little self coveted. I wanted this certain doll who’s hair grew when you put her arm up, Polly Pockets, money, etc. I remember the feeling of being totally consumed with wanting stuff.

Looking back, I am kind of disgusted with myself. Sure, I was a kid and what kid doesn’t love dreaming up all the things to ask Santa for for Christmas? What kid isn’t greedy when it comes to Christmas?

Sophie won’t remember this Christmas. Obviously, she’s not making lists or asking Santa for anything. But since she’s here and this is our first Christmas with a child it’s forced me to think about what I refer to in my mind as The Santa Issue. Because part of me wants to skip the whole Santa thing altogether-teach her that Santa is a story, a game, that lots of parents play with their kids. I don’t want her to ruin it for other kids, but I don’t want to put her in a situation that would cause her to become greedy. I don’t want her to ever get so caught up in presents that Jesus’ birth becomes a sidenote to the season.

The commercials I see for Toys R Us and Wal-Mart and Target and Gap and on and on and on the more nauseated I feel. It’s all about buying stuff. Do you know how much stuff I have? Not a lot comparatively, but too much. Do you know how much stuff Sophie has? Too much! She doesn’t wear all the clothes she has, she couldn’t possibly play with all the toys she has. But still, she’ll receive more. And there’s nothing I can do to stop it, because if I say she doesn’t need any gifts then I become a Grinch. I’m not anti-gifts. I’m anti-greed! I’m anti-buying stuff you don’t need just because it’s Christmas. Thank God I married a man who feels the same way.


4 thoughts on “Santa

  1. agreed.

    And I remember as a two year old responding to people at church who asked what Santa was bringing me for Christmas. I said, “There is NO Santa Clause” quite emphatically for a toddler. I don’t remember ruining it for anyone (though I may have!) and I don’t feel like I missed out on anything. 🙂 Just my perspective for you.

    Also, my Kevin had a facebook status that said he was watching all 6 Star wars because I’m gone for two nights. Your Kevin said he would do something like that too, but he he would miss “his family” the most. My Kevin agreed and said he’d rather watch FoodNetwork with me than Star Wars alone and your Kevin said, “Amen.”

    I thought that was adorable.
    We have some great men, Jen!

    • Aww! That is so sweet. Our men are wonderful!

      I’m glad to hear that there are people out there that didn’t do Santa growing up. I don’t think we’ll end up skipping it altogether, because I do want her to experience a bit of the wonder and mystery of Santa. But I think we’ll keep it to a single gift from Santa.

  2. i think you’re reading too deep into “the santa issue”. i didn’t know santa was an “issue” per se. i think of it more as a tradition. i think that as long as kids want to believe in santa, that’s totally okay. and i think it’s kind of cool when they get to that certain age where they start to figure things out.

    i believed in santa for a while, too, just like most kids did growing up. but i don’t think i was ever greedy. and i don’t think i was greedy about christmas because my parents never let me be greedy for christmas. i was taught what greed was and i was taught not to be greedy. lol. i think it’s natural for kids to be disappointed if they didn’t get something that they wanted. but i don’t think its because they are being greedy. i think its more because they are hopeful that santa could be the one person to make the present happen. if it doesn’t it happen, it doesn’t. oh well. kids will get over it in a day. life goes on.

    but anyway, i say let “the santa issue” ride out for as long as it can. it’s a part of childhood. its kind of funny to see kids believing in santa because i was that kid, too. now i look at it and can’t believe how big of a gullabull i was.

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